Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Growing pains

I realize I haven't written in some time...I made the decision to take a break from posting. It felt like for a time that it was harder and more of an inconvenience for me to post which is something it has never been to me in the past. I have always loved writing down the funny things my children say and do and posting the fun events we get to do as a family, but it was getting to be too time consuming. When I stopped writing I realized I had more time to just soak in the moments I got with my kids instead of feeling like I needed to jot em down to remember them. I still feel it's important for me to keep up on my journal and blogging but where Penny was a bit more work and there was a lot going on it was in my best interest to step back and just enjoy it and be extra involved in it for a time.
I guess an update wouldn't be such a bad idea, since I'm writing. This last year hasn't been easy but it's been worth it. We have been so blessed and I have learned so much. I look forward to what's in store for us this next year. Rick is continually working hard and more often now that he's received a big promotion. We are in a position to build or buy a home which is exciting and stressful. We've already experienced getting our hopes up and having them crushed on more than one occasion but we are hopeful that we'll know what, when, and where; in time. Me, being the less patient one in the relationship, is maybe struggling a bit more with all of it. But, Like I said, learning a lot.
This last year, I've experienced what it can be like to be seriously depressed and confused about our worth and value in this life and I feel for Anyone who suffers from depression on a daily basis. Thankfully, I was able to come to the realization of a lot of things and find myself better from all of it, less judgmental and more open to loving and serving others. I feel happier and more blessed than ever before and I'm so grateful to my Heavenly Father for the insight He has provided me with.
Now, it is a waiting/enduring/progressing game and I'm sure a bit more strenuous along the way because with trial and tribulation comes growth. But I admit, I've had some major growing pains throughout this last year and I assume will have more within this year. So grateful to my Savior and the love he has for all of us. Happy growing everyone!!

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